August.

I feel like I've let this summer pass me by. I haven't played softball in over a month, nor have I been to any of Justin's games. I'm as pale as a ghost. My hair isn't it's normal bleach blonde, instead it's dirty dark blonde. I never went to the zoo. I didn't get to go to the park. My eyes look heavy from working too much and sleeping too little.

I feel like I'm in a funk. I find myself feeling so alone anymore. I rarely see my friends, Justin and I have been going through a rough time, and I just can't seem to caught a break. I'm sure I bring most of this on myself but there's just something I can't shake.

We finally got moved into our house and unpacked the boxes. Now I need to work on me. I've started painting my nails bright colors and bought some funky and fun jewelry. It's lifted my spirits but only slightly.

I want to feel vibrant. I want to get out of this routine. I need to figure out what's going on with me and start enjoying life again.